August 04, 2010

What happens next?

谋事在人 成事在天

Today, I absolutely felt the meaning behind this Mandarin phrase.

In English, simply translated: To plan is in Man's hands; but to succeed is in God's (or Heaven's) plan.

Nearing the semi-ripe old age of 30, I look back and realise that many things, the things that matter, the things that last or have a lasting effect on my life (so far) happened only when I least expect them to. Only when I have half-convinced myself that my effort may not pay off and maybe it's not meant to be, maybe I started with a bad plan, will the twist come, and the silver lining show through.

A couple times this happened, my friends congratulated me and told me it's because patience does pay off. Patience. A word I am often and naturally associated with, especially since I work with children (autistic, some more!!!). I wonder, even now, if it's really about patience.

I don't intentionally tell myself to be patient and to wait. I mean, even when waiting for that never-arriving bus, I don't tell myself to be patient. I just, well, do it. Wait. I just do what that task or that moment requires me to do. If it's to wait, then wait. Unless it's something that I actually know I cannot wait for, then I would want it to be done or happen quick. Then, I will do what I can to catalyse that. Otherwise, I just do it and see what happens.

Yes. 'See what happens next.' That's more like me. I'm really just hanging on to see what can happen next and meanwhile, do what I need to do for that point in time. Somehow, that translates to patience, perhaps.

Oh, I digressed.

I'm so happie today cos what I had wanted for the past 2-3 months has arrived. =) It is a good day. 4 August 2010. ^^

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 22:37